The unique place that we, and we suspect many, is to find ourselves is trying too ascertain if we are looking into insanity, or peering into rationality from within the crazy. Always standing on the edge of madness, trying to reason from which perspective we are viewing our lives, can fuel the chaos, and deepen [...]
Moving Into The Future, and Out Of The Past, With Dissociative Identity Disorder. Part I
We have been having a revelation as of late, a seeming push from deep within our system to seek more than what is currently out there. We feel that maybe, all of the therapy we have had, albeit lifesaving and helpful, is only the beginning to a recovery that is more evolution than repair. We [...]
Is Suicide is a better alternative to this….
So, I challenge my readers, to explain to us why living in this fashion, is better than taking the chance that all will come to an end.
Regulating a Bully Alter
Having alters, can be more challenging than the worst spouse or room mate. They have their own opinions, and once awareness is attained, they also know they have very little accountability for their actions. For me, the worst part is not being able to leave the room when I need to. You can never quiet [...]
Duty or Happiness?
We are a great fan of existentialism and the freedoms that accompany living authentic. However this is a double edged sword, as responsibility for our choices is never without pain. Pain as it seems is the knife that forms the clay of humanity. We are very much defined through our own suffering, which in many [...]
Fear of Expressing Needs
Perhaps the most difficult thing for us, and we believe many others like us; is the ability to express our desires. A most basic human need and function. Without expressing our desires, we rarely are able to satisfy our existentiality. One of the fundamentals of being human, is our individuality. Our desires are not just whims, to be catered [...]
Get your popcorn and favorite substance, and hang on…….. D.I.D. Romance….
Six Daughters, Two Wives, fourteen personalities, in one body, and only one house. Yes, you read correctly. This post is going to address our very complicated, and very real situation we are currently living. This is the reality of romance and marriage in DID. This is the living hell/heaven/whatever, that we created, and many times [...]
An Existential Approach to The Integration Question
As we continue this journey through space and time, we realize more, there is no conclusion to our existence. Even though death is a certainty, reaching the climax of our humanity is certainly unattainable. The struggle to give meaning to the nothingness that we occupy only brings angst and despair. We are as Sartre [...]
Gaining Identity through Exi-Sential Balance
We have focused greatly on our opinion of the Existential ideology, and how that applies to the consciousness of our humanity, but also allows us to power our own freedom through true choice in actions. Admittedly, we believe that an Existential attitude towards our day to day lives is preferred; this cannot however be the [...]
Achieving Existential Power
Power originating from individual authenticity, is the greatest source of energy in the universe.
To Be or Not Boundary!
To be honest, I know the title is crap, but I was at a loss and wanted to get past that point to get this down. Boundaries, something everyone at one time or another finds themselves in conflict or having issues with. This can ben the form of their own boundaries, or issues that arise [...]
From Our Perspective. Yes I am Crazy.
Every time I google DID, and thats a lot by the way, I always come up with the same verbiage and blah blah blah. For the afflicted, this is very daunting. We are isolationists, very mistrusting, if at all, and yet we are asked to believe that we have one of the rarest things on [...]
The Sanity of Madness
Good Day everyone! We have been gone for a bit. Things have been very rocky the last few weeks since Gene passed. The alter reunion tour has been charging on whether they needed to or not! We hae been learning a lot about not only ourselves, but our current IRL family. More importantly how the [...]
What to do with the Body???
Wow, ok so here we go... This is a complete mess! The fathers body sin cold storage, and I am the next of kin!! REALLY!! Are we the only ones that see the irony in this? So his new girlfriend wanted to cremate him right away...I also found out that the body was NEVER examined [...]
Redefining Identity, After Complex Trauma Part II
So many of us that suffer from PTSD/cPTSD, and other associated trauma diagnosis, have no idea at all who we really are. We only have the misinformed ideas we were taught at such young age. Many of these ideas, contributed to the trauma, or did nothing more than reinforce the negative perceptions we have about [...]
Triggering a Little, And How To Recover
There has been a delay since our last posting. Our lives have become somewhat more manageable in certain ways. We have made choices in our lives that are scary, things we would have never done before. We have ventured into new space as things would seem, or have we? Are we just merely following our [...]
Relationships With Trauma Survivors
For the longest time, we have looked for things in others, we were locking from our childhood. This was not a conscious search, but like many of us, we were "looking for love in all the wrong places! " I know, but Johnny Lee could not have said it better, if he himself were a [...]
the bad seed
Not knowing how to begin this piece, we wanted to speak of many things. So much is in our consciousness at he moment, needing to erupt into the living world. So many times we are fearful of the consequences of our thoughts, our desires, of the very feelings that are supposed to define who we [...]
